Satisfaction

Fleeting is the term that comes to mind on this topic. Well duh..... That's the response right? Yes it is fleeting. No things aren't always great. Blah blah blah. The only problem with all of that is, it does absolutely nothing for you when you are experiencing the drift of purpose or meaning or well, satisfaction.
Yesterday was an ecclesiastical day for me. Not as in the "pertaining to the church" way but in the pejorative sense. I awoke, I worked, I ate, I read, I entertained myself, viewed various media sources from various sized screens, I laid listlessly,I played music, I felt sorry for myself, I video gamed, I (fill in your fruitless activity here) etc,etc,etc... The point is, I had the kind of day where nothing could satisfy a hunger that was inside of me. I thought that the fault was in these things I was pursuing but in truth, I had no idea what I was hungry for. I wanted something that can't be had. Tim Keller would probably call it existential angst. The thing that is at our foundation saying "in this world, some things are not as they should be and until the next arrives, it won't feel right."
It is rare that i come face to face with this core truth. It is frightening to be honest because the one obvious option is despair. I hate despair. It is so debilitating and can sneak upon you quite subtly... I guess just naming the angst above drains some of it's power. I feel comforted knowing that comfort doesn't always come. Is that a paradox in my thinking? I guess it just helps me to know that this feeling is normal and should be expected to descend at various times in life. Thank God it is not the end of the story.